The Scattering Season Is Over

Wednesday is one of my favorite days of the week because of the prayer call I join every week. I’ve never met these people in person, but we know each other in spirit, and it’s always such a powerful time in the Lord. I’ve been joining every Wednesday for almost a year now, and I can’t imagine stopping anytime soon. In fact, I feel like God Himself would have to drag me out when it’s time to go! I know that one day something may come up that forces me to miss, but for now, I’m protecting my Wednesday nights at all costs. It’s always a breakthrough day for me.

God often prepares my heart before the call and speaks to me during it. Yesterday, He whispered something to me. It wasn’t an audible voice—more like a nudge in my spirit. He asked,

“Are you ready to stop working against Me now?”

And with that, He took me up in the Spirit, reminding me of this scripture:

"He who is not with Me is against Me, and he who does not gather with Me scatters abroad."

—Matthew 12:30 (NKJV)

I answered with a wholehearted "Yes."

I almost cried because I realized that God wasn’t reprimanding me for my actions; He wascommissioningme for what’s next. He wasn’t just telling me I’d been working against Him—He was inviting me to start working with him.

For a while, I’ve been looking for someone to teach me about purity and holiness. It seemed like just as quickly as I found someone who could guide me, they would withdraw. I began to feel like I was being cast out, but God revealed that I wasn’t being cast out—I was being called out and commissioned!

As a wife and a mother, I already have a ministry. I’m not just training for one; I’m living in one every single day. The more I sought someone to disciple me, the more I realized I was delaying the very thing God had already prepared me for. I’ve been raised. I’ve been equipped. Now, it’s time to go forth.

A wife is a minister.

Aspiring wives and broken people—including my husband—are watching. I must walk in holiness.

A mom is a minister.

The next generation is watching. Everything from the way I dress, speak, and behave—it all matters.

It’s wild how easily I’ll do it for them, but struggle to do it for me.

But now, with clarity of vision and purpose, I’m ready to steward this assignment well.

Being a light can feel awkward. People are watching me, and honestly, it makes me uncomfortable. I’ve found myself emotionally eating just to cope with the weight of it. But then I stop and think—what’s that sparkle in their eyes when they look at me? That’s the light of Christ reflecting off me. I wonder what they’re looking at me for… but I get it now.

When they walk away from me, they’re going back into their darkness.

That’s why I must a good representative of God’s light—so they can carry some of it with them.

That means I can’t mingle in the darkness.

If I do, they may never come to the light.

So What Now?

Now that I can clearly see the assignment, I’m choosing to walk in it. No more hesitation. No more hiding. No more waiting for someone else to validate what God has already spoken.

I’ve been praying for a teacher, but God reminded me—I already have the Holy Spirit. He’s been teaching me all along. The people I thought were walking away weren’t rejecting me; they were making room for God to lead me directly.

There’s a shift happening in my heart. I’m not chasing titles or platforms. I’m not waiting for someone to “send me.” I’ve already been sent—into my home, into my marriage, into motherhood, into every space God has planted me. And I want to be found faithful there.

The weight of being watched used to make me shrink. But now, I see the honor in being chosen to carry His light. Even when it’s uncomfortable. Even when it costs me. Because it’s not about me—it’s about Him. And if someone can leave my presence carrying even a glimpse of His light, then I’ve done what I was called to do.

So yes, I’m done working against God. I’m done looking for permission.

I’m gathering now.

I’m gathering the broken pieces of my own heart, the wandering hearts in my household, and the seeds of truth God has planted in me. I’m gathering it all and bringing it back to Him.

From this day forward, I walk with Him.

On purpose.

In purpose.

With purity.

With boldness.

Because the scattering season is over.