Drown Lust Before It Drowns You

“When the enemy comes in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.”

— Isaiah 59:19

Let’s be clear: God doesn’t tempt us. If you fell into sin, it wasn’t because of Him. It wasn’t even always the devil.

We sin when we’re drawn away by ourowndesires (James 1:14).

Lust is one of the most deceptive. If you don’t drown lust, it will drown you.

But God—He gives us living water. Grace and truth. Not just comfort, but correction. Not just freedom, but discipline.

“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

— 1 John 1:9

So I’ll start.

Before Jesus, I was bisexual. My husband knew. He didn’t mind. In fact, he thought it might even work in his favor. Maybe it would make me more open to bringing someone else into the bedroom—if I was okay with it.

I thought about it.

And I wasn’t.

See, most women aren’t only sexually attracted to their partner. That’s real. But for me, it goes deeper. I get emotionally attached. And that emotional tie quickly turns romantic.

And the truth?

No one is worth that but my husband.

I don’t want to ruin this marriage.

But it’s hard when your husband runs a nightclub and doesn’t share the same convictions.

That doesn’t even hurt me—I understand. Lustful fantasy is enticing. But it’s never as good as it looks.

Just ask Eve.

Every time I consider trading satisfaction with my husband alone to explore something else—even with him involved—something in my spirit gets disturbed. Because it’s only a matter of time before the door swings open wider than it should. And if I give up my voice in my own marriage, demons definitelywon’t listen to me.

My family would be up for grabs.

So how do you say no?

You don’t.

You sayyes to God.

And thatyesbecomes a loud, resoundingnoto temptation.

Yes can be hard.

Yes can be easy.

“Submit to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”

— James 4:7

Here’s how I’ve learned to say yes to God:

I fill myself with the Word when no one’s watching.

That way, it becomes second nature when everyone is.

I’ll admit—after marriage, I lusted after a woman. It didn’t break my marriage, but it broke my heart.

Someone asked me a long time ago how I overcame lust.

Truth? I hadn’t yet.

But now I stand strong, and I can finally answer:

I overcame lust through heartbreak—because I never want to feel that again.

I overcame lust through wisdom—because I now understand it wasn’t her, or the enemy, or even my husband. It was my own lust that broke me.

I overcame lust through forgiveness — because I love like I’ve never been hurt.

And I thank God I’m still standing.

Restored.

Redeemed.

Reconciled—with God, my husband, and myself.

My failure wasn’t the end—it was the test that prepared me for the real one: the test of faith.

I believe we’ll pass every test that comes next, not because I’m strong on my own, but because I’ve learned how to fill up on the presence and Word of God. My answer is still yes.

Jesus asked, “Can you not watch with me one hour?” (Matthew 26:40)

He was praying that we would resist temptation. That we wouldstay awake. That we wouldstand firm.

Whether anyone else joins me in seeking the Lord or not—

These battles will bewon.

Because I’ve said yes to God.

And that’s more than enough.